Nonfiction: An Obedient Girl

An Obedient GirlRead More: A brief interview with Amy Bridges

“Now, none of us knows what to expect from Mavis Wilkerson,” my mother said, looking back in my direction from her position in the front passenger seat.

Several white sheets fluttered in the wind, hanging loosely to clotheslines. I’d started counting them a ways back, as my father drove us, winding in-and-out through back country-roads.

In those days, I often found myself sitting in the backseat of my parents’ white Oldsmobile, driven from one supper to the next across the expanse of the Texas Panhandle. The trip to the Wilkerson’s farm was no different.

At nine-years of age, I was a plump child who took pride in comprehending that to cut a brisket correctly, one must cut the meat on a bias, lest it be too tough. To reduce the bitterness in collard greens, one must soak the greens in vinegar for at least an hour prior to cooking. For a bowl of sweet turnips, always choose turnips with unblemished skin that are heavy and firm to the touch.

“I’ve never met a lobotomy survivor before. Have you Charles?” my mother continued.

“I’ve never met a lobotomy survivor,” my Dad answered.

My father was known as Brother Charles to most of the flocks he shepherded in Southern Baptist churches throughout Texas.

He and my mother, LaVon, married young, becoming missionaries in the Middle East, spending years in Beirut and Sidon, which they both preferred to small Texas towns.

One of my mother’s favorite stories was relating the drive to catch the plane to Lebanon from LaGuardia in 1969; they passed Woodstock rocking in full swing and didn’t pull over.

“We didn’t have time for that nonsense. We had plans,” she always said. “We wanted to save the world, not get drunk and roll around on it.”

My mother fell in love with the Middle East, purchasing a gold-threaded Bedouin bridal dress that she would wear to women’s luncheons. She would stand before a rapt group of Texas women, speak Arabic, and feed them all hummus, a food that at the time, could be found nowhere in Texas. My parents left Lebanon when the Civil War started with a promise to return, but as the years passed, it seemed less likely they would ever go back.

“I loved Lebanon,” my mother would say. “Americans think Middle Eastern women are quiet and submissive, cloistered up. Nothing could be further from the truth. They might wear the hijab, but that means nothing. It’s about modesty. A Middle Eastern woman runs her own home. Most of them have Masters degrees. Many are doctors. All of them have strong opinions and they don’t apologize.”

My mother embraced everything about Middle Eastern culture except the Holy Prophet Muhammad. She would drink Jasmine tea and sometimes cry longing for a return trip.

“Texas bores the hell out of me,” she would say. “I was once held at gun point at a post office in Syria. I once stopped traffic walking down the street in Beirut in high heels. Now it’s all chicken fried steak and prayer meetings.”

This is one reason I think she was looking forward to the luncheon with Mavis.

“I’m excited about meeting her, though also a little scared,” My mother told my father that day in the car. “They told me Mavis was lobotomized in Dallas after some time in an institution. James never brings her to church.”

“James is a strange man. He’s always loitering around there, even when he doesn’t have to be. It’s weird.”

“Listen to you. You’re the preacher. No one loiters around there more than you. James and Mavis don’t have any children. They’re on up in years. Maybe he’s lonely. How much friendship can you get from a lobotomy survivor?”

“We’re about to find out,” my Dad said. “We will eat and leave.”

“What are they cooking?” I asked, ready for the whole thing to be over with.

“Does it matter?”

“I just want to know what I have to be prepared for. It’s one thing to meet crazy people. It’s another thing to eat their cooking.”

My Dad laughed.

“Stop encouraging her smart mouth,” my mother told him.

My mother was adamant that we were to eat whatever we were given, and offend no one in the process. Otherwise, it might misrepresent the message of Christ, which was I guess, “Eat everything.”

In truth, I couldn’t have been more surprised by Mavis Wilkerson. She was a pleasant woman with a vacant stare. She welcomed us into their home, a large farmhouse, mostly decorated in white with large hand crocheted Afghans draped around things that gave it a cozy quality.

“Glad to have you,” Mavis said, welcoming us into the dining room, set with china.

My eyes rested immediately on the honey- glazed ham, surrounded by hot sweet potatoes in the center of the table, and I breathed a sigh of relief. Her lobotomy hadn’t stopped her from cooking like a sane-minded southerner.

“Glad to have you here, Preacher,” James said, taking the head seat at the table. James was an older gentleman of around sixty-five, but was strong and husky. He was clean-shaven, and dressed in a fine suit. He stretched his arm over to Mavis and gave her a squeeze on the shoulders. “Mavis here cooked this whole meal herself. Didn’t give her a bit of help. She’s a good cook, this one. Think I might have to keep her.”

Mavis didn’t respond to his touch, other than to keep the same smile, and the same look ahead of her.

“James loves my cooking,” she said pleasantly.

“You’re a fine cook, Mavis,” he told her. “You do things perfect without a complaint.”

It was an odd thing to say. But Mavis looked toward James and they shared a look that could’ve been a tender one.

Then Mavis began serving up the food.

“This is quite a spread,” my mother told her. “These creamed potatoes look delicious.”

“They’re James’ favorite,” Mavis answered. “Bacon bits. Sour Cream. Pepper. Buuuu……” and her voice trailed off. She stared ahead like she’d been entranced by some invisible thing off in the distance.

James put his hand on her shoulder and gave her a little shake. “Butter,” he said. “She uses butter.”

“Butter,” she said, looking back at my mother. “Thank you.”

“You went off into Crazy Land again,” he said gruffly, as she put ham and potatoes onto his plate.

“I. I have trouble… Staying focused,” she said, looking at my mother.

“I know what you mean,” my mother answered, trying to lighten the mood. “I often lose track of my thinking.”

“Not the way Mavis does,” James laughed.

Mavis looked over at James and laughed too.

“Mavis would stare like that for an hour if you didn’t give her a little shake now-and-again. A restart. But she sure is cooperative. Wasn’t always that way, were you?”

“I had a little bit of a temper,” she said. “Depressed.”

“Enough of that,” James said, cutting her off. “This isn’t a therapy session.”

Everything was quiet.

“You know what?” my Dad said, breaking the tension. “We haven’t blessed this meal.”

Though farmers are generally quiet-natured, James talked a blue streak, telling stories about the town, commenting on the weather, even giving a run-down of the church books at one point, listing the tithers.

Mostly, whatever James would say, Mavis would agree with, smiling in a hollow way and wiping her hands on her lap napkin.

I stuffed my face and watched her closely. Something wasn’t right with her. Sure, if you were to take her out in public, she could get along okay. She could smile and exchange pleasantries like the rest of us, but if you watched closely, there were cracks. Maybe that was why she never left the house. Maybe that was why he never brought her to church.

When Mavis refilled my potatoes, I thanked her. She looked at me then and said, “You are an obedient child. That is the work of the mother.”

She looked at my mom.

“Amy is an obedient girl,” Mavis said again, smiling. Then she looked over at James. “Amy is an obedient girl, isn’t she, James?”

“She’s quiet. She does what she’s told. Hardly see that anymore,” James answered.

“Thanks,” I whispered, and somehow, though Mavis meant it with the best of intentions, it didn’t feel at all like a compliment. My stomach was hurting, but I kept eating the potatoes. James was right about Mavis. She was an excellent cook.

Shortly thereafter, my obedience paid off, when Mavis announced, “I made a pie. Special for you, Amy. A lime flavored Refrigerator Pie.”

Mavis saw the delight in my eyes.

The Refrigerator Pie was my favorite of all pies. It was a staple among small country potlucks. The pie was never cooked, but cooled in the refrigerator.

“I’ll give you the biggest piece. I’ll serve you first.”

I was thrilled with Mavis at this point, and could’ve seen myself heading over there after school in the future for cookies and homework.

James got up from the table, looked at my Dad and said, “I have something to show you, Preacher.”

For a moment, I thought I saw a crack in Mavis’ demeanor; something that perhaps indicated not all was sunshine and unicorns.

“James doesn’t like sweets,” she said, handing me the pie. Her hand was shaking. Was it nerves? A side effect of the lobotomy? “I always wanted a daughter.”

The thoughts were not connected, but at this point, I didn’t care.

The sensation of biting into that pie, the creamy sweetness was euphoric. Though my stomach felt nervous, I couldn’t stop eating it. I didn’t notice when James re-entered the room. I vaguely remember thinking, ‘is he wearing a choir robe?’

The pie was a beautiful combination of citrus and cream. It was delicate, yet strong. It was put together perfectly, then topped off with a homemade whipped topping that was light airy perfection.

I was brought out suddenly by James’ clear and sharp voice. “I’ve brought you some reading materials, Preacher.”

There was a sharp thud at the end of the table. A large stack of about seven Aryan Nation Magazines landed between the half-eaten ham and the silver coffee pot.

There was a moment of silence before my Dad said, “What is this?” […]

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Amy Bridges is a television writer whose work has appeared on Discovery Health, TLC, and HGTV. She is the recipient of the San Francisco Writers Conference First Prize Award for Fiction. Her play, “Women of the Holocaust,” was published by the Kennedy Center in their Volume I anthology of Best Student One-Acts. She is the winner of the Edward Albee Playlab Award, presented by Edward Albee, for her play, The Day Maggie Blew Off Her Head. She is a Hedgebrook Alumna and holds a BA in Theatre from the University of Alaska, Anchorage.

“An Obedient Girl” was a runner-up in the 2015 Editor’s Reprint Award.